Hi there!
This blog is for the Mums (or anyone associated with a Mum) who have ever questioned their existence since taking on the huge role of parenthood. You can use this blog in a number of ways:
1) To lighten the day and just have a laugh at my Aussie, ironic, satirical, and self depreciating wit
2) Identify with my madness and the mad situations I go through and be comforted by the fact that there are many others out there going through what you are
3) Feel self righteous and vindicated that you are nowhere near as mad as I am (good luck to you)
A word about writing style. You need to bear with me. Like all storytellers in my family, I am fond of going off on tangents – but I promise the angle will be interesting and I haven’t got dementia and will get back to the original topic. Secondly, I write how I speak – lots, and without taking a breath – I use a lot of dashes and brackets to expand on a thought – or many thoughts in most cases.
So, here’s a little about me so you can put my blogging into context....
In a parallel universe, far off in the distance, a long , long time ago... I used to be a relatively normal person (relative being the operative word because most people would agree that my whole family is a bit nuts). I was a business professional with post graduate qualifications, a workaholic and self confessed success junkie (with some yuppie scum personality traits added into the mix for good measure). Although I was never void of values, ethics and professionalism, it s fair to say I was a self absorbed capitalist and consumerism was a hobby.
Fast forward to the current day......
I am now the “Mistress of Home Economy” - full time wife; mother of 7yo boy and 2.5 year old daughter; and carer to my 90 year old Father-in –law who lives with us. In a strategic sense I used to point out to elitist executive management that macro was essential but if the micro ants weren’t marching to GET to the vision, then macro falls on its butt pretty fast. Macro is now planning the week so I can fit everything in and maintain sanity. Micro are the details like fresh bread for school lunches and stain proofing toddler’s clothes BEFORE putting them in the washing machine.
I am essentially going through a confusing “30’s passage” given my life seems so parallel to the one I had before kids. Self no longer exists (been replaced with various forms of slavery). I’m now a Christian (admittedly a little rough around the edges. I’m counting on God having a good sense of humour – especially toilet humour ), I believe in socialism and collectivism and am becoming intolerant of self centeredness (the modern mode of human existence ). I used to have 2, 5 and 10 year plan. Now I can’t tell you what my future holds other than how many more loads of washing there is to do. I’m flat out on having a consistent definition of self let alone facing the full-time work force in a proficient manner. I have little energy to spare now days, a completely different body shape, more grey hairs and wrinkles, my hormones and moods fluctuate wildly and I have been castrated (my good friends used to think I acted and thought more like a bloke – now I’m an emotional wreck quite frequently).
So this blog is also kind of therapy (although I have a good shrink) and hopefully through the process of writing, my subconscious will start to eyeball some things and file them in the correct filing cabinet and in time I will be able to more clearly define myself and my future.
There is one quote from my favourite preacher that always sees me through: “I’m not where I’m supposed to be but I’m sure not where I was. I’m a work in progress!”
So, if you can identify with any of this, you will probably enjoy my blog. Welcome and enjoy!
